You were in an altered state. I was desperate to impress you. I'll be a friend to you, Vander, but we don't trust each other, and I can't be more to someone when that's hanging over our heads.
I can tell, you know. I know you're expecting the worst of me now at every turn. You don't fail to imply how I'll never "get it," how I'll never be on your side fully, and everything I say is going to be tinged with where I come from.
You can't trust me, and I can't trust someone who doesn't trust me. It's not impossible for us to still work together or be friends, knowing that.
You know, I recall using those exact words on Grayson more than once because where we come from does tinge how we perceive each other. We both had biases we needed to check at the door, but that took time, effort and nudges to each other. She was one of the first Enforcers to call me by my name back then.
I also couldn't tell you what it's like to be born, grow up, live, and work in Piltover. I expect everything I say and do will be tinged what where I came from, but that doesn't mean we can't come to a mutual respectful understanding of one another.
I wouldn't still be talking to you if I didn't respect you, but reminding me I'm from Piltover- a place I barely feel connected to anymore- isn't going to help our conversations.
When you see me, you see Piltover first. Then you see Jayce. It colors every part of your conversations with me with distrust. I said I'm not holding it against you- we both know Piltover has wronged Zaun for decades. I respect you and the choices you make for your own sake because of that. Even in this conversation, you assumed I was accusing you of hiding something. I don't know how else I'm supposed to interpret that other than you can't stop assuming I'm out to get you in some way.
It's for the best for both of us if 'casual friend' is the deepest extent of our relationship.
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I appreciate that. We all mourn our losses in our own way.
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What have I done to create this distrust in you, Jayce?
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You can't trust me, and I can't trust someone who doesn't trust me. It's not impossible for us to still work together or be friends, knowing that.
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You know, I recall using those exact words on Grayson more than once because where we come from does tinge how we perceive each other. We both had biases we needed to check at the door, but that took time, effort and nudges to each other. She was one of the first Enforcers to call me by my name back then.
I also couldn't tell you what it's like to be born, grow up, live, and work in Piltover. I expect everything I say and do will be tinged what where I came from, but that doesn't mean we can't come to a mutual respectful understanding of one another.
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I wouldn't still be talking to you if I didn't respect you, but reminding me I'm from Piltover- a place I barely feel connected to anymore- isn't going to help our conversations.
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You know who it is.
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When you see me, you see Piltover first. Then you see Jayce. It colors every part of your conversations with me with distrust. I said I'm not holding it against you- we both know Piltover has wronged Zaun for decades. I respect you and the choices you make for your own sake because of that. Even in this conversation, you assumed I was accusing you of hiding something. I don't know how else I'm supposed to interpret that other than you can't stop assuming I'm out to get you in some way.
It's for the best for both of us if 'casual friend' is the deepest extent of our relationship.
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What does casual look like for you?
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Sorry. Of course you're dealing with personal matters, and I made it about me.
[Whether or not he liked Jinx and Silco, they meant a lot to Vander.]
Casual still means we can drink together.
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Well, pouring drinks is one of my life-long skills, so happy to provide and consume.
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